Ode W

Artwork: Flayed Lamb - Hayv Kahraman, 2008

if all i can do
is look,
if all i can do
is see,
if all i can do
is observe
from
afar ~

then i
feel sorry
for myself.

the pathos,
the tragedy,
the million
myriad
unusual
fevered
maddening
things
about you;
those base
triggers
that send
mishmashed
signals
flickering,
blinking
into my
befuddled
mind.

the dark
hags,
the shadows,
the hissing
adders
tell me
to say
my
goodbyes.

but i:
i...
am more
stubborn
than an
ox,
donkey,
obstinate,
ornery
beast
that i
am.

i don't
know why
i haven't,
i can't,
i won't
give up;
why i
won't,
can't,
shan't
give in.

i think,
i believe,
i know
you're
worth
it.